Therefore, as my first day of work approached, I eagerly laid out my uniform and double checked my alarm clock. I brushed my teeth and burned a CD for the brief car ride across the freeway. I had all my bases covered.
Except for the one I was least expecting; that work may not be all that different from what I was used to.
And this is what ended up happening.
Things were so familiar that it felt like I hadn't been gone for almost a year.
People were the same, policies only differed slightly and there were even some of the same customers!
I realize that this comfortable familiarity is nice; it's like returning to your seat on the couch to find that it is still warm from your previous inhabitance. But nice is not what I'm looking for, it's not what I have prepared myself for.
I was prepared for turmoil, total confusion, almost loneliness.
Why?
I think that if I let myself sit in the comfort for too long, my body and mind will slip into complacency. Like an accidental afternoon nap that you swear you didn't see coming, I'll slide right back into old trends and habits and worst of all, mindsets.
I like my mind now.
It is an interesting and happy place.
I don't see that changing.
I just need to remember that I can't sit in the warmth for too long.
I need to throw off the blanket, get up and face the AC.
